A new begining

Well Christmas is over and a New Year has begun. I will begin my New Year by praising God. I do believe sooo much . I will try to be a little less boastful. I just can't help myself. I know He is with me. I just pray I am worthy. I am going to tell you a little about myself. What a sinner I was and am. I had a abortion back in 1973 . It was so hard for me to move on from that and never thought God would find in his heart the forgiveness I so desire. I do pray for God's forgiveness everyday, but what is important is I know, He will forgive me. I want other people like me to know that too.( Seek and ye shall find). In the old testament which I started reading about a month ago, it seemed to me "How self righteous God is. Now that's a funny statement because you see He is righteous. But, the more I read I began to understand what He is saying to us. I remember my mom telling me not to start at the beginning of the bible just to open the book and start reading where ever that takes me, it worked for her, but being me I had to start at the beginning and go straight through. As I read I would open the bible and pray " God opened my eyes and Heart and soul so I could understand", well I guess He had to test me because at first nothing came to me. I was very sad . I started to think God does not care about me , but then I kept on reading and slowly all began to come together. I know there are very many women out there that had abortions and are lost, Please do not let Satan have his way with you. Fight back and know you are worthy of Gods favor. God Loves you all so much He gave His only son Jesus Christ to the cross to save people like us and others. Please make Him Proud of you. Come back to Him who created you. Who loves you. I have not been a saint in my life time , in 1973 I had my abortion , in 1979 I started thinking about the Lord and ever since I've felt better , whole again. Life is really tough enough without judging yourself. Leave that up to the Boss. Try to save others from making the same decisions we did and above all Love the Lord. Another mistake I made was being ashamed of my self, we learn so much if only we listen. When talking to people don't force them into thinking like you do, be understanding and just listen and say what you yourself went through. If they would rather think you are the self righteous one, than back off a little and just say How much you care about them. Tell them if they ever need to talk to contact you. You will be there for them . Just take one day at a time , after all that is all we are promised. God Bless and take care .